It was the first time they actually upset me. I thought they understood. It’s clear to everyone. I’m a lesbian. I have been since I can remember conscious thoughts of my smaller years. I knew early what I was, what I am and how different everything was going to be because of some people. I’m totally okay with some of the judgemental ways of people I don’t know. But when it comes to the ones I’ve gotten close too, telling me deep down inside I like men. That upsets me. Telling them over and over and over again that I don’t, and them laughing cause they think I find amusement in it as well, upsets me. I was told many times in the past that its a phase. Some still tell me it is. Yeah one big 19 year long phase huh. I’d just rather everyone just leave me alone about it. It’s really not a big deal. Telling me deep down inside “I like Dick” and wonder what its like makes me want to stoop down to the disrespectful level and blurt out, well that means you want to know that deep down inside too, guy. But I won’t, because all I want is to be left alone about it. But I guess that’s impossible.
I think when it comes down to it, not to get cocky, but all these guys are just mad they can’t fuck me. So they’re gunna try this reverse psychology shit to turn me straight. Sorry fellas, I’m a raging lesbian. So stop Pissing me off.
